My Blogger's block is now over.

I have been very frustrated since I moved to Calgary that I seem I cannot write on a blog like I used to. A lot of things I have found since ending my second blog (I deleted my first one) before I moved to Calgary. One of the things I found that I had writer's block when I moved. I had to experience a new lifestyle in Calgary. Writing about my life in Calgary seemed so hard, and I think because I used to write every time I would go out in Toronto also had enough negative things when I blogged about it.

Truthfully I guess the writer's block was my own doing, but a part of me felt I needed a different outlet of expression yet I couldn't find it and still couldn't write. I now know being in my parent's house in Toronto for the 3rd visit back that the saying is true, "Third time's the charm."

So now I am blogging once again. A 110% percent effort on this post and this blog is going to stick. I have found my inspiration finally. I am now ready to type about the experiences I have had and going to have in the future. (At this very moment I feel this is so right, I am now flying as I type this, while I listen to the song "Wasted" by Andy Duguid feat. Leah. Hahahah I know I've been looping it since the Tiesto concert @ Circa.) But what I like to focus now is the present....


Presently... right now I am in Toronto on a leave of absence from The Home Depot in Calgary. I am really thankful they allowed me to have. I have 11 days left until I go back to Calgary life. Speaking of which, I miss it there right now. I miss being busy, needed, wanted, basically having a purpose which I found while I was there. Why am I back here in Toronto then? That's easy to answer. I am here because of family, my family who I missed being away from for 11 months. In a way I needed to sort out a lot of things that weren't said and what I had to tell them. In the 2 and a half weeks since I been here I have able to work out my relationships with my parents. Although still a work in progress, I didn't expect it to be great just overnight. I feel I am in the right direction. Not just with them but my life now.

Being here, blogging about my life, just living this moment, I know now I am not meant to be a Torontoian no longer. I am destined for something else. Calgary isn't my destination either but it is a pit stop I can say for sure. I have moved on. I no longer feel it is my place, I belong to nothing else but myself, only to discover what is out there. Led but my gut feeling, the only feeling that has my best interest always. I am blessed because of my instinct and it is why I know I am not one with the city of Toronto.

Don't get it twisted, it is my gut that told me to come out here in the first place. I have got my closure finally and from now on. Toronto will only be a pleasant memory of how it has molded me into the person that I am now and will become later on. Along with the city are the people in my life that associated with this city. My life is no longer with them, they have their own lives to discover what is out there for them. I can only be with them in spirit and my true friends would understand that I have never left them for a second. Just because I don't talk or see them for a 11 months doesn't mean I don't care or support what they do. It's my love for them I have let them go, set them free and if push comes to shove, I will let them fly by me and will welcome them to land anytime.

Friends don't keep score because friendship is not a game.

Only having faith in my family and my friendships gives me the strength to keep on moving
on. Possibly now, I am ready to seek out for my companion. I had to remind myself, I am no longer the guy I used to be. I am the guy that I finally wanted to be. I already have what I wanted. Toronto made me remember. It is time to step forward.

Until my next post. Ciao.