I'm just not that into you.

It's been a long time since I have this kind of period where I honestly have no interest in anyone else. It's a feeling that overwhelms me with faith in myself actually. That I don't mind being alone and most times I rather be. Somewhat, I've always been a kind of loner.

I expect nothing. So in the same token I don't expect anyone who reads this to understand me, or my view of life but I rather be independent and deal not looking, then to let others control my life and my happiness. I love being in control I'll admit it. At the same time I like keeping as simple as possible and I will block anything else that is not important to me at the time.

I'm focused on my own shit that's what's up. Period.

So I'm back in Calgary and I been catching up with my friends here, I ended up finding out that a girl I used to check out is in fact, still checking me out. It's too funny to hear she brings me up in conversations when I was away and showed some jealousy. I find it amusing, because at the same time I ask, "Why does she care about what I do? She was the one who had the boyfriend."

Supposedly she broke up with him before I ended up leaving for Toronto and she asked me to chill with her now. I told her, "I'm going to Toronto. So no." and ended up laughing. (YEAH, I'M MEAN.) It honestly came out though. The girl wants to play games with me that's fine, I just won't participate in them.

What she doesn't know that I am no longer looking at her or girls in general. I'm starting to find what qualities in a WOMAN I want and I'm done with girls from now on.

All that matters to me is my health, my friends here, my financial status (trying to save money) and my family and loved ones back east.

Next post I'll go into what happened in Toronto.